i hate him

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#1 Nov 29 - 3PM
nomoredenial
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i hate him

there I said it

Nov 29 - 11PM
meik11
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I hate him too!!! In fact I

I hate him too!!! In fact I hate every last one of them for putting us through this shit!...
Nov 29 - 9PM
monilove
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It feels so good

Saying those three little words. I -HATE-HIM Geez, What a load off... : ) Thanks for reminding me it's okay to hate that S.O.B... Instead of being completely guilt-ridden for hating some jerk/loser, who treated me like garbage'!
Nov 29 - 8PM
Susan32
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Behavior consequences

Unfaithful men are more likely to have heart attacks: http://www.latimes.com/health/boostershots/la-he-herman-cain-affair-heart-health-20111129,0,6930512.story I saw it with my own eyes with the ex-Psych prof, tho I didn't have a romantic/sexual affair with him. I didn't know he had an LDR girlfriend in LA. This article mentions overindulgence in food&alcohol... and I definitely saw both with the ex-P. Feel free to hate him, hate what he did... and YES, there IS karma!
Nov 29 - 7PM
LightAtTheEndOf...
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I dont hate him...?

I think i now feel "indifference"...? I used to hate him with a passion. I remmeber being in my anger phase and i would literally hear the Kill Bill music, my flashbacks would go Black and White and i was ready to try and kill all 88 of the Crazy 88's to get to him lol But now i feel indifference. I know what he is, who he is and i pity him... he leads a very sh*t existence. Whereas i feel, i laugh, i share joy with family and friends my world is technicolour where as his is a dull Black and White. Indifference xx
Nov 29 - 7PM
Sparrow
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I pity him for what he is, I

I pity him for what he is, I despise him for what he did to me, and I thank him for what I have learned, just not about personality disorders, but people in general. It's been a real learning experience, an eye opener, an education..............I am a smarter, wiser person for it, and have never felt more free in my 49 years of life. This experience has forced me to dig deep within myself, to travel to a past that I would have just assumed forgotten, and learned once and for all, how to deal with and accept the things that have happened to me. I deal with people differently now, I expect to be treated with respect and regard. I no longer bend over backwards to please people, EVERYTHING in moderation. I am still me, friendly, loving, caring, fun...........but now, I don't sacrifice myself in the name of pleasing others. I am happy to do for my friends and family, but not if it is going to kill me. I have learned not only to say "no", but am comfortable in knowing that it's ok to say no. I am whole. I am happy. And I never would have found myself in this wonderful place if not for my journey to healing. Pretty cool. Pretty damn cool............ Smiles
Nov 29 - 5PM
Im_always_fine
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I LOATHE him.I'm ground

I LOATHE him.I'm ground zero...broke..fat..miserable..and yes I blame him. I was at the top of my game when I met him...top physical condition, financially set, I had a plan for my life and it was working. I thought I was smart...but he was smarter. He deliberately set out to take my money and my self esteem. I fought him...I fought hard. Now I'm tired and mad. Boy and let me tell you...I hate him enough to look him in the eye and tell him I love him. There is a sinister pleasure in knowing that I'm just soothing him til January. When I am PLANNING his expulsion from my life. He thinks he is so suave that I'm OK with his sh!t and forgive him....joke will finally be on him. I am beat up...empty...embarrassed. But I'm not out!! I'm not the bad person he has put so much into trying to convince me I am. I'm furious...but it's called self defense. I also get a sinister pleasure in knowing that he never knew me. He never took his eyes off his own reflection in the mirror long enough to SEE ME. He doesn't know me at all.
Nov 29 - 7PM (Reply to #8)
nomoredenial
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I completely get where your

I completely get where your at!
Nov 29 - 4PM
blueworld
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i hate him

i hate him too and i am ok with that
Nov 29 - 4PM
Hunter
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I hate him too

I hate him too
Nov 29 - 4PM
nomoredenial
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feels like stuping to an all new low

but I actually feel that today and I think its progress
Nov 29 - 4PM (Reply to #4)
empath
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congratulations!

Good for you, nmd! The anger stage is is GOOD! I had so much trouble with this! Feel it, really feel it and get it all out. Please don't judge yourself for how you feel and remember you are not a "bad person" for feeling anger, you are a kind compassionate person giving yourself permission to make the N the one exception to your way of being. Compassion begins with ourselves. Do whatever you gotta do to really get that anger out of you...without hurting anyone and without breaking NC. :-)
Nov 29 - 4PM
Emma
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Well said!!

Well said!!
Nov 30 - 6AM (Reply to #2)
Hermes
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The lash of indifference

Indifference. That is to place to reach. And I am reminded of an expression coined by ole SV: "I hate to be loved and I love to be hated". And I suppose, when all is said and done, we are responsible for our own emotions. Best to all Hermes