I had sex!

I am not sure what to think. I drove out through a blizzard to this little town on Saturday for a party a colleague was having at an old hotel in the lobby. it was very, very laid back with lots of young people, lots of fun, drinking, shots, photos on Santa's lap, that kind of thing. I got talking to a mutual aquaintance and we had so much to talk about: all kinds of history stuff, family, travel, writing. Yes, we drank a lot, yes, we started being a bit touchy and cozy, and we got together our way back up to our rooms. It was sweet, wonderful, he was very giving and very satisfying. I think it was just an unexpected thing. He is much, much younger than me, and wow! What a difference from old, mean freakish narc who just wanted his butt licked.

I feel a bit bad because we made a bit of a public display of affection, just a couple of kisses and hugs, but still. . . .

I also feel kind of bad that I had sex like that.

But it was also sooooooooo nice to talk to someone interesting who was attracted to me and who actually wanted to have sex and not just do weird stuff.

Anyway, just sharing. It was nice to feel that way again.