I finally made my decision
I finally made my decision
I decided that I am going to go NC on the XN. What drove me to this decision is because I randomly ran into one of my exes last night. He lives on the other side of the state about 5 hours away but was over here for work. I dated him for 2 years 3 years ago. I was 18 and stupid. I really did a number on this guy. I just moved out of mommy's house and went off to college, he came with me (he is a few years older). Well I didnt treat him very well and I tried breaking up with him many times but he would always cry or something so I never did. When I finally did break up with him he caught me fooling around with his best friend the next night (not my proudest story). Anyways, I ran into him last night and we got to talking. I could tell that he wanted to lay into me but was holding back. I finally told him to just do it. I told him to tell me everything that he has bee holding in for the last 3 years. Well he gave it to me! He started crying and telling me how horrible I was and how I threw him away like a piece of trash, how he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me but I never truly cared about him, he asked me if I ever loved him at all. When he was telling me all of this I took full responsibility. I told him that I was sorry and that I was young and stupid. Well once I left him I got in my car and started balling my eyes out. It dawned on me that everything he said to me is what I would like to say to my XN. But the difference is that the XN wouldnt sit there and listen and take responsibility like I did. I realized that I will never get that opportunity with the XN like Josh just got with me. I have to just move on past it because I dont want to be like Josh and hold it in for 3 years. So I am now going NC. I realized that I have to because it is the only way. Right now I have been talking to him and every day he asks me to come over, but some days I get the nice guy asking and others I get the jerk asking. That is no way live, you cant be civil or friends with that guy. So now my only question to all of you is do I sinelently go NC and just stop responding to him? Or do I tell him that I cant do this anymore and to please stop contacting me and to have a nice life? Please give me your opinion!
Im staying strong!
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
rainbow
Nevergoback
Rainbow
Thank you everyone!
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
Rainbow
Rainbow
Just go no contact , dont
Just go no contact.He doesnt
rainbow1 ..
I have mixed feelings ..
tryingtoovercome
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
You can't control what he does
rainbow1
staying strong78
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR OPINION!!!
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
JUST DO IT
Actions speak louder than words
Asking him to not contact
staying strong78
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
yes, i know what you mean
There won't be closure
I agree with all of the
Peace. J