I feel like a terrible person :(

I feel like a terrible person :(. My head totally accepts what he is but apparently I still have denials. I hate that sometimes it can take forever to truly get over someone. Life is so short for me to still think of him,etc. 2 weeks ago he says how he wanted to see me and take me to the movies, well he never has. Ever since he hoovered 2 weeks ago he stopped texting me,etc. So its like I gave him his "high" then he's gone again?. I'm sure if he loved me he would have been calling and texting everyday, wanting to spend lots of time with me. So I know what you guys mean "actions speaks louder than words". I can't believe these evil ppl have no shame to hurt and lie to others. They need to burn in hell. Apparently he does construction work, he starts today and he will get paid $40 per hour if he's not lying lol. My mom thinks he is.he's trying to sound like he will be rich.

There is this guy from childhood that I know and wouldn't mind to start hanging out with him and talk to him but I don't want to jump right in a relationship, if I'm still thinking about that asshole. Its not fair to the new guy. I feel good that atleast in a way I kind of am starting to like someone again. Usually it takes me forever to start falling for someone again. My family really don't want me to think of this PD and to move on with this guy. They weren't in love with this POS I was. It hurts so much and I'm glad you guys know the feeling. But also its not fair for me for my ex n to keep coming back to me just because he doesn't want me to be with anyone else. I guess he wants it all about him and doesn't want me to be happy. Today I saw the guy, he's older than me 3 yrs. He's a really sweet,caring, nice, mature guy.

I just feel like crying and hate thinking so much! :(

God bless xo