I cant stop crying...
I cant stop crying...
Hi All,
Im in bed, I cant get out. Im in tears, Ive never wanted something to go away faster then this. I feel that being so in love and obsessed with him has made me put myself second, my friends second and most of all, my beautiful children, and Im really struggling with that. (he is not the father of my kids). I wanted it so bad, I wanted the I love you's and the your beautiful's to be real. I wanted to spend my ALL my free time with him, so that I could ensure he wouldnt be able to see anyone else. I got babysitters for my kids, so I could spend more time with him, and I justifyed that to myself, as having my own life.
I walked away so many times and was drawn back to him. He barely works, has no car, depends on his family for things. Has no friends (or very few)...is notrious for cheating on women....but I seen through all of that. I guess, Im just struggling with being so stupid, and with choosing time with him, over time with my kids. It hurts today, real bad.
Ive been through therapy, I been through no contact, Ive been through it all, and im still here and I still hurt. Im successful and cant understand why someone like him, could ruin someone like me.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Im pissed...I wanna get outta bed...but I cant.
Detox
wow!
what the hell was wrong with me"
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cynthia
I know the feeling all to
I cry all the time , it is
I can't stop crying
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yes quietude...
but he is always in my head.
cynthia
but I didnt have him did I?! No we never did
whatever
whatever
He is only going to ruin you
You've been through therapy?
I'm glad you're feeling
Thanks