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#1 Sep 7 - 12AM
better off
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I can't go to bed

I am exhausted, staying up, because I can't bring myself to get in the same bed with him. I don't want to tip my hand about what I found out, but I cannot let him touch me now.

Sep 7 - 1AM
Barbara (not verified)
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same here

spent 4 years sleeping on the couch another 2 1/2 on a mat on the floor of my kid's rooms With Atypical M.S. and Fibromyalgia. I feel your pain. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ CLICK HERE: Articles & information for Narc Victims - Updated Daily "As soon as you feel that crazy sense of walking on eggshells, fending off N-rage, stop. Walk away." - Dr. M. Beck
Sep 7 - 1AM
James (not verified)
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Sleepless nights and endless days

I too remember many nights (sleepless) because I was laying next to a lie. At the time I didn't know all the reasons but I lost all respect for her so much it started to effect every part of my life. Being with these people cause so much emotional and psychological pain it's unbelievable at times. Not sure what I can tell or suggest you to do? I would just wait until she fell asleep but remember many days waking up on the family couch.
Sep 7 - 11AM (Reply to #2)
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That's how I felt, I was

That's how I felt, I was laying next to a lie. I did get in my own bed. He thankfully didn't come near me. I didn't sleep much at all. I feel kind of light-headed. I keep thinking about every cutting comment, every time he tried to make me feel less than, raging over a pan in the sink when he's been spending hours looking at girls getting sprayed in the face. I can't stop thinking about that. It's so degrading. And he had the nerve to come home and criticize ME? It's really unspeakable how these people can live two lives. We had plans to do something really exciting today and I am having a hard time now. It's so hard not to confront him. But confronting him will only bring lies, blame, lunacy. I know there's only one reason for him to have an AIM account. One. I can't believe the steady stream of lies that have issued out his mouth. I sat this morning and looked over our beautiful garden that we built together...looked at our kitchen all decorated with things we've bought on our adventures...and yet he's totally sick inside. And I know I can't get a shred of honesty out of him.