I am so embarrassed, I just cried on a date - will I ever get better at this....?
I am so embarrassed, I just cried on a date - will I ever get better at this....?
I just had 3rd date with a man I've known for a while & been friends with for a while. Nothing intense & the first two were lovely, felt "normal" and lovely.
But this time we went out to dinner & he was stressed from work & I was feeling those vibes coming off him - just vibes that he was a little tense / stressed. And I asked casually if he was ok, anything bothering him & he said no, he didn't think so. But I kept picking up those vibes. And I silently started freaking out. That was a big warning sign with the passive-aggressive ex that something bad was coming; narc rage or drama was just around the corner. I know this man is different but I couldn't stop reacting inside to that old trigger. I shrank a little & went a little quiet. I tried not to but I just couldn't help it. A part of me was panicking a little inside. Panicking for all the old reasons, panicking that I was still reacting to old triggers, panicking that I wouldn't be able to stop myself.
We chatted for a while & then my date said "You seem quiet, are you ok?" And he had such concern in his eyes. And without warning I just burst into tears. Right there at the table.
I am so embarrassed. So completely embarrassed. And I'm so worried. I haven't seen the exN for over a year. And I've worked so hard. Will I ever get better at this or am i just broken?
I'm sorry.
Oh sweetie , i cryed when i
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