Hurting

Well It has been almost a month of NC, but to be honest it is due to his silent treatment. I have tried to call a few times, different then the times before basically to say I know we are over but wish we could have ended as friends, or nicely etc. I think he expected me to call begging, crying or apologizing this time.

In the couple of years it was beautiful, memories, happiness, jokes, but the few times we did fight it came to silent treatments lastly days till now through holidays weeks. My birthday is soon and just told his VM unaccepatable.

We both are on a social media site I need for business etc. Has tons of followers. He has tried to re follow I have blocked and proud I left it that way. But he was flirting now adding all my religious, work and woman aquintances that think he is great and don't know the story and not going to tell them. We don't have that kind of relationship and I would look bitter, jealous and crazy which is what he wants. We never had any problems until I discovered his account. Now he is hovering there all day. I was on, happened to see him on and left all day. Just hard.

He put up a song the other day implying for other men to leave me alone, but he himself has not called ot apologize, emailed or texed unbelivable.

Trying to remain strong, has been hard not to call. I think that is why he is going to add the nice women friends now as I told him he would probably never pass each other on there as we have different friends etc. ( he mostly only had a few followers all trash monkeys hoes ex language) now he has added 100's of mine...Sigh. I asked him to take down his profound love for me on his as it is embarrasing as people have no idea I am not with him, that he is not devoted nor talked to me in weeks. If this wasn't my life and a movie I might find humorus.