The Hidden Evil of the Psychopath

The ex-N in my college life seems to have been easily spotted... at least at the time. Who know s how the situation is a decade later. Do female students still despise his condescending manner? Do students seem to sense his malice? Is he still proud of being mean? Do his colleagues tolerate him, but other than that, avoid him? Has he brought down another student who admired him, simply because they were decent? One of my fellow alums had described this Narc as "the Devil." Mind you, this friend wasn't evangelical or Pentecostal. My other friends thought there was something "not right" with him. And... ironically... in regards to that blog post... it's interesting that some of my fellow students compared this Narc to Jack Nicholson's emotionless character in "The Shining."

In addition to carrying out goal-oriented acts, the psychopath will also deceive and create chaos for no reason other than the enjoyment of doing so. "He will," says Dr. Cleckley, "in fact, commit such deeds in the absence of any apparent goal at all." This critical factor is often the one which baffles most rational people. When seeking an explanation for the behavior of a psychopath, they will attempt to apply reason. But, when dealing with a psychopath, we must understand that psychopathy is the reason This was the number 1 thing that screwed me up. I spent years trying to figure out why he did things, like play me and tell me things that were obviously not true. I would rationalize it to myself. He must be telling me the truth because why would he bother doing all of it. But the real truth was he was doing it just to do it, just to f*ck with my mind and my life. That's the hardest thing. Normal people try to make sense out of what pyschos do and we apply our standards of conduct to them and doing this just keeps us stuck. Great article.

This article sums up my experience well in that he has created an organization of followers in the name of goodness for humanity. An organization he hides behind and uses as his fake front....yet chaos lurks behind for the staff and others. Participants are endless narc supply (as I have personally experienced). I had no idea what I was participating in. I saw it as a cause I could support and participate in (because I actually believed his bull shit). Now I see the big picture and am horrified. Reviewing my seduction experience tells me he had a vision - for me - and for many. Truly diabolical. He fits the mold: volunteers, just wants to help "the world", and is always looking to "help" others. Loves the power. Actually told me he doesn't need help, that he wants to be in "complete control". One thing I am reminded of lately....once you know the truth, you can't go back. They are walking among us, next to us, in front of us,in many places. My radar is now fine tuning. I am creating a filter to sift people through, yet I have much to learn and look forward to it. At some point, I will consider my role in the world given what I now see. After I've had time to restore myself and gain clarity on those steps. For now, it is back to self care. Thanks again for the article. I am so glad to see the internet used for light.