Help regarding narcissistic parent ..
Help regarding narcissistic parent ..
My dad is a narcissist. If you saw a picture of him you would laugh at the trueness of it all. He looks like a more attractive version of Mitt Romney with jet black hair at age 52. He's cheated on my mom. He says "just once" but we all know thats a lie, he travels every week. He puts everyone down constantly. He's mean, and belittiling, and genuinely does not care about any one except himself. When I was 7 he physically abused me. When I was in 10th grade he held me up against the wall by my throat, and shattered my phone on the wall among other things. Once he hit me in the head extremely hard with a telephone. My mom never believed me. When I told her about the abuse, she physically attacked me too. I think she needed to think I was crazy and that I deserved it. My dad still blocks me in rooms, blocks doorways, gets in my face, intimidates me, and calls me crazy REGULARLY.
My mom never told me she didn't believe me, she's just hated me ever since. She's tried to make it impossible for me to be unable to complete college twice. I got into the college of my dreams and a week before I was supposed to go (I was registered for classes) she pulled the plug financially and it was too late for financial aid. I found another longer, more difficult route to take. I continued on with my education and she attempted the same thing again with this current school.
My baby sister who was 14 at the time over heard her having phone sex with another man after my dad cheated on her.
Today we were fighting and I asked her flat out if she believed me that my dad abused me. She kept avoiding the question until she looked me square in the eye and said "No. I don't. You're a liar."
It was seriously the coldest, most hurtful thing I have ever heard in my life. I felt sick to my stomach, actually started gagging, and told her no wonder she hated me, I would hate my daughter too if I believed her to be so psychotic.
It's sad. And it's no wonder that I ended up with m ex-psycho. I feel like a bad person all the time. I feel like I deserve this shit from guys. I feel horrible. I can't even tell you how many times my parents have called me a "scum bag."
I have no financial options. My parents are very well off. I want to go live in a shelter some where. I'm tired of this fight. I did so much to get away from my ex-psycho to be here dealing with this.. it's unbearable.
gravity, you are such an
Gravity
I truly think she might be.
I remember feeling the same way
Thank you for all of your
I am 100% NC with my mother for the last 7 years
You are a very very strong
Thats incredibly disturbing
Dear Gravity
ordinarymiracle