Help Please - CONFIDENCE

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#1 Feb 3 - 4AM
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Help Please - CONFIDENCE

Just to recap:

It is a week since Narc left town to go and live with OW and her 2 children. Last weekend I stayed out of the way (even out of town), to avoid any drama, and yes, he did contact me but I wouldn't give him what he wanted (a source of supply), he turned the tables saying 'Goodbye, I know that Layla will be OK and turn out great. I hope life gives you everything you want. blah, blah.'

As this week has gone on he has made contact with me asking 'how is Layla'. No response from me, so he starts having a conversation with himsself, in which he said things like 'Oh you must hate me if you can't talk to me', and the last one AT 4.50 AM on Friday read: 'it was so nice to talk'?????????? Idiot!!

So, I finally plucked up the courage yesterday to go and buy some new clothes. I went to an engagement party last night in my new outfit with a girlfriend who I have known for 15 years. My confidence is on the floor.

I bumped into an old flame, he is very attractive , and he stopped to talk to me and whereas usually I would flow with conversation with him, I was shy, unable to talk, and I know that i seemed miserable.

The room was full of people of which I knew about 3, I have never felt so out of place or lonely.

and went home.

I don't meant to sound crazy, and I managed to stay for 2 hours, but when will I stop feeling like the loneliest, most unattractive, shyest, miserable person at a party. I never used to be like this. My friend doesn't know the ins and outs of what happened with Narc, as she is from a different world and doesn't understand what i have ben through having been lucky enough to never have any knocks in her life. tis the second party I have been to in 12 months, and I found it so hard.

Any advice on this would be well appreciated. I have to say, I hate the NARC, this is the aftermath of everything that he has done...........like I say, i never used to be like this...

Feb 4 - 1AM
shock and awe.some
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Hi SI

Feb 3 - 10AM
Valentine
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Way to go...

Feb 3 - 10AM
Garden
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You will be ok. It takes

Feb 3 - 9AM
Brit
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confidence

Feb 3 - 5AM
Ali15
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I know how you feel, I went

Feb 3 - 6AM (Reply to #2)
Used
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Ali15