Help please

I had a terrible dream that the exN and I were in a strange hot foreign country in a restaurant bar place, I asked him for some money and cigarettes as I realised I had nothing,so he threw some coins and two ciggies on the table, then gave me his evil glare, bang straight in the eyes, staring me down like he always liked to do. I was away from the table and on my return the coins and ciggies were gone, I asked the waiters who were gesturing with their hands and shrugs of their shoulders that they knew nothing. I was wearing nothing but a tiny slippy thing that was clinging to my perspiring body and felt so vulnerable, I looked toward the exN for help and he laughed and said "You are just so emotional".

I woke up at 4.30 this morning absolutely in despair, it was just as if I was back in the middle of the abuse all over again. So all day I have felt lonely, angry, and sort of 'off'.

I hate that man with a passion, how can I stop him torturing me in my dreams?? I am so glad to be away from him. I deserve better than he can ever give.

I have been asked on a date, I think this is making me think of him again, I feel so damaged by his abuse.

Need some nice words please.

Brit x