help beaten
help beaten
I am sorry to be so negative but i have been slowly slipping into despair since Friday, my sons birthday and now I just feel beaten and really low. I feel bad writing this but my life feels so hopeless.
My children went out with him last night and came back saying he still cares for me and will always be there for me. He has all but tortured me emotionally. I feel just so crazy and mixed up and worse much worse I miss him so much today.....again.
I am just crying typing this. I had a big fight with the children today because we were late and their things werent ready. I just feel like a slave. And he just walked away from it all and has a nice home ow no responsibilities and a carefree life. I never go out am scared of bills and responsibilities. Work like a dog to make ends meet and am so lonely I could die
its not fair.
Also I am 5 weeks nc but my friend has been mediating with him about contact with children and so in a way I have still heard from him and I think that might have been a fix for me. I saw my solicitor last week and drew up contact arrangements until after christamas and so now there is no need for any contact. and apart from what the children said There will be no further contact.
I hear about his new life and the children adore him and believe his lies and bullshit.
I screamed and cried this morning and last night and feel they compare me to Mr Perfect which is what he is to them now.
Feel so very very hopeless. He left 18 months ago but was saying there was no one else and he still loved me and wanted to work on our marriage until 3 months ago when the whole horrendous truths came out.
When will this stop. I really feel at the end of my tether and cant take any more. I feel like the messed up one. he seems to be getting along fine. it is me who is falling to pieces
sorry again
Please hang in there Jel.
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