HELLO EVERYONE!

Hi All,
I havent posted in quite a long time. I found that although I love, appreciate, all the great support and insight from everyone on here, I found that it was actually making me think of DRB ( dirty rotten bastard) or Narc even more.

So as much as I love all of you and wish everyone the very best in their recovery I have been trying to move forward.

I havent actually talked to N in almost a year. But I was with him for almost 12 years of my life.
He has been hanging around my neighborhood a ton lately and has been telling people that he is sorry for the pain he caused me.

I think he is just trying to clear his conscience before the million dollar wedding to OW this weekend.
Yes, its actually happening. The wedding ( show, money making event)OW proposed to him to save his finances and save him!

I am not feeling sorry for her, as she is a N also.

I keep reminding myself that you can put lipstick on a pig..
But its still a pig!

BUT I have to admit to you all that I am pissed about the INJUSTICE of it all!

How does he destroy my heart and my soul and land out on top????

He doesnt deserve to get everything he wants!

While I still struggle to pay off bills i ran up to help him. I still struggle to trust men.
And am slowly, slowly, slowly,
recovering!

Lipstick, PIG, still a pig!!!

I have to have faith and know that my life is genuine and true and real.

And thats what I want in my life.

But its hard!!! Its a movie star show and I keep hearing about it all around town...

LIPSTICK, PIG....