He sent a happy thanksgiving email...and I'm still NC. ;+)

Blessings and best wishes to you all this Thanksgiving day!

Just a quick note. He sent me an email...under his 'alias.' lol (for those who remember recently, he emailed me about his ailing mother, and used an email I had never seen before) I never replied.

Today...it read...''Happy Thanksgiving, Dee. I miss you. I really do.''

Closure came for me, everyone. I want to cry. In a good way, not a bad way. Not sure if a) he does miss me b) he is hoovering or c) just fucking with me. Could be all three, when it comes to a narc.

But, I did not reply. I can't lie. I was tempted. But, didn't. I don't ever want to get back on the roller coaster. Something as simple as 'I miss you,' or 'Happy whatever...' can lead to so much chaos.

Nope. Staying NC. I do have closure. And God waited for my heart to heal before He let me have it. I know that sounds odd. But, some of us never get closure. I have often said...closure is when we move on, and know they have not. But, there was a time when I so wanted him to say these words. But, today...I felt pretty much nothing. No anger, no sadness. But, definitely a spirit of ...aaah. Closure.

That's why, this email was closure. For, who knows if he truly misses me. But, the fact that I no longer care to entertain these emails, shows me...I have moved on.

I am grateful for this site. I plan to donate. It saved my life and my heart, and healed me from ever needing validation from men, ever again. Thank you Lisa and Hunter...and to all the mods. Happy Thanksgiving. :=)