Having extreme hate
Having extreme hate
Does anyone else have those days where you have extreme hate towards the exN? I have been doing well lately, some days I rarely think of him, and other times I am happy of the lessons I learned from this awful person. But then I have days like today, where I have so much hate in my entire being towards him. I find myself almost disgusted by envisioning his face, or imagining his touch. I hate how he treated me, and I hate that I stayed and let him treat me like dirt.
I am in therapy, and when I told my therapist about my hatred, she told me that it will take time, but not to dwell on it. She also said the anger is a good thing, because it is giving me strength. I feel that my anger is helping me with my NC because if I didn't have that, I feel as though I would crumble and contact him.
My hate is not at the extent where I would every do anything to him, but the thought of ever seeing him again makes me want to vomit. I've never hated someone so much in my life. And it makes me hate him even more that I once thought I loved him, and I thought we were so close. Now I feel hatred towards the fact that he tricked me, lied and abused my love. And I wish he could know how much he hurt me. I feel as though the only message I am sending about how much he did hurt me is going NC.
Anyone else have these feelings?
negative emotions create bad
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Hate
fairy wings
Tasha - Thank you
thankyou fairy wings
Tasha - absolutely
Fairywings
So totally agree
HATE IS NORMAL!
Whatever 2009
The Rage of the Powerless
exactly the same...maybe a bit worst
Aceonelady
hate
Hate & anger part of recovery
The anger of being taken advantage of, taken for granted
Anger
Anger
Patsy
Ellen
patience
patience