Haunted...

Having a bad/sad day. Got up, showered, started the day. If I stay at home, I think of him here with me. If I go out, I feel like I'm looking for his car everywhere. This is just crazy because we don't live near each other!! I feel like I need some sort of exercist to rid him. I have allowed him to possess me! On bad days, I think of his 24 hrs a day. My only respite is sleep and it doesn't come easily. Like I said, I hope today is just a bad day and tomorrow I'll be stronger. Almost three months NC and I can still hear him telling me that I was wrong (about my suspicions) like it was yesterday. Thanks for listening. I hope you are all doing alright.