Goodbye Michael

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#1 Jul 23 - 10AM
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Goodbye Michael

Saying Goodbye has never been something I like to do; I always hated goodbyes;
But if this will help me heal this is what I must do'
I have no hate in my heart;
even tho you put me thru hell;
I understand your mentally sick and will not be getting well
I wanted to fix all that was wrong with you'
and save me at the same time;
what I wanted and what I got was not what I ask for'
I know in your mind you are justifying why you do these things;
I also know you're looking for something you will never find'
I also know That its all about you;
You only feel your pain and no one else
I should hate you for the torment I went though
But Hate takes energy
and I am so tired I don't have any left'
I want all the things you can not give to me;
I know if I stay and play this game I will die a lonely death'
I have accepted the fact that some people can't be loved or love'
You are one of them
Just when I think I understand how things are you change the game'
its always been black or white'
People always said we had a love hate relationship
Little did they know I never hated you it was what you did that I hated;
I am tired of forgiving only to have it done again'
Your mind never stays the same;
I cant bounce any more
I cant wait you're you to wake up; because I do understand you will never wake up You're dead inside;
I cant all blame you because I allowed it'
I always heard crazy people have no idea they are crazy' they think its everyone else; Oh boy was he right'
and being around you has made me feel insane'
I knew you was sick I knew it and stayed anyway;
some times you act as normal as everyone else; then you start talking crazy shit;
I over looked your crazy talk;
I over looked so much;
the fact you lied from the start
There are two kind of people who live on the streets
the drug addicts and the insane
Sure we all get down on our luck But I could tell you had been homeless for awhile
the way there were holes in your underwear;
the way you ate like you would never see food again;
I seen but didn't want to see;
I picked you up and cleaned you up; and set you back on your feet;
helped you get a job and a home and even when we were broke up and you needed help I came to save you from losing it all;
I would let you come to my home when they turned your light off because you didn't pay the bill
Knowing good and well You made just as much money as me'
But you were to busy chasing women and blowing your money'
You lost your contract of post; because you are to stupied to care about the important things in life; But I understand its all about your sickness;
When I refused to help you and go tell a lie to the federal government You left me;
You ask if my daughter got raped would I not defend her'
I said I would not wait a year I would kill the SOB that same night;
in other words you suppose to be my child and You feel you were raped;
NO I said get a lawyer you said you were a Lawyer;
I refuse to lose my job with the military Post just because you need me to tell the lie you made up in your head;
TRUTH that's not what happen;
You lost your job because you don't ever take care of what you suppose to; just like your bank acc you lost because you wrote bad checks;
I pray one thing;
I pray God puts you back on the streets where I found you'
because there is where you belong;
with the rest of the crazies'
Yes you are very book smart; But your mind is not stable'
you cant hold on to nothing for long;
and I am sick of picking you up when you fall' only to be cursed and watch your rages and have you DD me over and over again;
I do know as long as there are date sites you will be okay'
because they will always be lonely women;
To take care of you until they see how crazy you really are'
I didnt cause it; I cant cure it; But I can save myself from being a part of your sickness'

Jul 23 - 11AM
Hunter
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Nice.. Get it out!! Facing