A good NC reminder
A good NC reminder
So, the ex was in town this weekend. And while I had no contact with him whatsoever, I did succumb to hearing about his FB updates from a mutual friend, which I won't bore you with but you know the story anyway, it's all about fabulosity, popularity and wonderful-ness.
And...the fact that he's seriously considering moving back here. Lovely! Can't wait. I'm just hoping that he finds some smart sexy beautiful woman who adores him in his current town so that he'll stay there.
Anyway, I've been feeling my confidence slip, my doubts about myself crop up, and hearing his voice in my head telling me all the things about me that are wrong. So it didn't take more than 3rd party commentary for me to slip back into those old bad feelings.
I suppose if he moves here he does, I'll deal with it if it happens. But I know for sure that even now, when I have no desire to be directly in touch with him in any way, his voice is still dangerously embedded in some of my thought patterns.
Made an appointment to see my therapist and it's back on the wagon for meeeeeee.
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Propaganda
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