Good Energy!!
Good Energy!!
There is so much in common with all of your stories..
his first words i remember him saying to me.."you have good energy" i didn't know he was a vampire seeking out his blood supply.
I thought it was odd that he always took his shirt off...walked around like a peacock..even inside places..he picked me up at the airport with jeans and no shirt on...obviously somantic..but i know that NOW..just thought it was odd, but loved his confidence, so i let it go by me..the first night we walked home from the restaurant, he took off his shirt and was actually talking and posing at the same time..i remember thinking, 'what is this guy doing?" he's comical..yet he seemed sort of pathetic at the same time..
his money management was bipolar...most times he was crying poor..then he treated me to a spa day at one of the worlds most famous..had to be a $1000/day..found out later...some woman gave it to him...little does she know, he gave it to me!
he never wanted to take me out...except for long drives out of town..he took me to meet his family..i thought that meant something...but they were weird...like quiet...now i think they knew i would eventually figure him out...they didn't know what to do with him..his 2 younger sisters were doctors and he couldn't keep a job..still i didn't see it..thought he had such potential!
We lived together in a place that i had rented and would come and go from since i live in another country... separate bedrooms/bathrooms...he would go out to dinner with me, then when we were home and getting close, he would leave...just walk away..i remember looking at him and he just gave me a cold stare and left..chilling...
he would always whisper things into my ear in public..."can't wait to rape you later...can't get your body off my mind..we will have a moment tonite.." then he would not follow through...but we always had sex right before he asked for something..
one morning, i got up early, did yoga saw an amazing full rainbow and woke him...he was half asleep..but I literally attacked HIM...most guys would love that...he followed through, then ignored me with silence for the rest of the week...I realized it was a no-no for me to initiate sex...
he always had ex's calling him..he told me..they were friends..then the next time I came back, he was calling them wacko's..on christmas morning, one called...he ignored it..i actually felt badly for the girl..he wasn't my guy..he made it clear..he did not want a relationship..yet he wanted me there...we stopped being physical and tried to be "just friends" too late for me, I was already sucked in and he knew it..but I kept trying to remain the friend..even took him on as a business partner...told him i just wanted honesty and loyalty...he agreed..helloooooooooooo
we would talk every week since i was out of the country..he gave me a beautifful bracelet for christmas...i never understood our relationship..he loved when i would cook, clean and then he would leave and "hunt" yet he would come home and tell me...when I am 40..you and i will be together...he was 35...i was ok with that, because i wasn't looking for a relationship and knew in my gut, he wasn't capable...
my last visit, a friend of his slipped and told me of the narcs latest..she looked just like me, same age, but had alot more money...the narc started to devlaue me...so i dropped him like a hot potatoe, before he dropped me..he didn't like that because he hadn't secured the other yet...I left the country and everything behind...told him if you don't see me in a year "donate everything"
he thinks i am coming back as I always do..but it has been 9 weeks no contact on my part..he gave a weak attempt, then when I did not respond..he backed off..i know he is just patiently waiting..
now he's into religion...but i witnessed him conning and lying to his friends..what a phony...
one time he doesn't smoke pot..then he quits drinking and goes back to pot...he's all over the place..
he's waiting for me to return...my silence is killing him...
i feel in control by NC...it's the best thing i ever did..everyday is a clearer day..please give me the strength to not get sucked back in...i never knew this could be so hard
thanks for letting me share...
Tica
Mine did the SAME thing with
Could I ask a question?
moonshine
thanks tica
moonshine
thank you tica
thanks tica
Tica,
ShaynasMommy
Ahhh yes, the strange
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
Betty2020