Getting worse
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Sep 17 - 2PM
Getting worse
Hi Everyone,
Today, and this week, seem to be unbearable. I'm ashamed because it's been almost 9 months and it feels like I'm slipping - not moving forward. With therapy, journaling, reading...it's just awful. I keep thinking about how angry I was. I looked at old emails I sent to my friend about him and I was always just so angry. Now I wonder if that anger is what pushed him away. Was I angry at him or was I angry at something else and taking it out on him. The thought that he could actually be the good guy he claims to be, and that I was the one who screwed it all up just brings me to my knees. I don't know what's happening to me, but I fear not ever coming out of this hole.
The Process
Nicole
hang in there