getting sucked back in.

He has just been to pick up our boy. He Give him a cuddle at the door and says 'he looks tired out,has he been up early?' I said yeah since 5. He said 'oh ur such a good mum, bet ur exhausted arent u, u back off to bed now then' i said 'no im taking L (my daughter) shopping' he said 'how is L doing not seen her for a bit'

Before i no it im talking to him arent i!! In 10seconds flat! I said she ok got to go now bye and shut the door! What is wrong with me, its like as soon as he starts saying anything i automatically start responding -im not lying its like he puts some kind of spell on me and i start talking, i did catch what was happening and just shut the door and said bye, but that is how easy it is to break LC isnt it. I get my self so worked up before he comes, and all in a fluster my heads not thinking straight when he comes to the door and then i answer his questions-especially when he is being all 'nicey' like that. Then i think once hes gone, why did i even speak to him, he doesnt deserve my words!

Well best just pick my self up and brush my self off and do a better job at 6 wen he drops him back off!! And remember contact =pain!! :( xx