For the first time ...

I don't quite know why or how, but for the first time in my whole mess (8 months NC), I feel that sentence in my head that is saying "him? I really don't care about him or what he is doing". I'm scared to even say this but it's true ...... Today I just do not give a shit about him...... I feel for the first time that I will surpass him in all things human...... 20 years from now, he & his kids will be exactly the same, no change, no emotional growth, no learning and still blaming everyone else for their deficiencies.

For the first time in close to 2 yrs ago that he walked out on me, I feel that I just don't give a damn about him and it feels good. Thank you everyone for all you have taught me ........ I cherish every story I have read on this site and respect everyone here for making it thru...... It was a hell of a ride, but one which I will never forget and always learn from ..... Tons of hugs to you all !!