Finally

Well....it's taken me awhile but I finally unfriended him on fb and am beginning no contact. I've been on a roller coaster for a long time...saying I was done and then giving in to his charms. What I was seeing was that his behavior was getting more and more bizarre. He was talking more about Internet porn, and his suggestions for what he thought we should do sexually were becoming increasing intense. He was constantly testing to she how far I was willing to go with him. Then the usual periods of disappearing. Then the manipulative charming text and emails.

I finally called and told him that I felt we needed to try and be friends without the sexual component. I was very clear with my message. I was also sick when I called and he asked why my voice was hoarse and I told him that I had a cold. Ten minutes after I called him, he sent a text that said "why didn't you tell me that you were sick? I would have come down and banged your little ass and left you for dead." Really? After just telling him we needed to be friends without sex?

The next day I got the usual text that I "was a phenomenal and amazing woman and he was so thankful to know me. Then today he text that he had made banana bread and bought wine for his wildass amazing friend.

I have ignored them all, but I won't lie and say that it's been easy. I doubt he's realized yet that I unfriended him.

Ugh...I have to be true to myself because if I give in, as I have so many times before, it will just be a rerun of the past. He has never taken my silence seriously before because he knows I always give in. Not this time...I owe it to myself.

I think the hardest part is that I'm used to always giving him a play by play of my life...so I'm a bit lost right now. And what he's doing.....doesn't matter. I HAVE to develop indifference.

I'm taking myself to a movie tonight!