fellfor a clown still!

When will I feel better again? After 3 months nc, after wanting to call a hundred times and not doing it, After confessing to my husband and hoping to work things out with him, I still feel depressed and somewhat hopeless. This ass clown is now posting on facebook his beautiful new girlfriend...Yes I, a fifty something professional woman in nyc, created a dummy facebook page to see whats going on. Now I know he lives his life as if facebook was his life, it may not all be true...So I wrote a message saying " Just a matter of time until NPD comes out." I love my husband, but we have intimacy issues...Im melting down and thinking I have to go away to a monastery or something. I need reassurance please that he WAS a narc and Im totally better off.Sometimes I am still so enraged and miserable. So angry at myself for letting this ass-hole under my skin and hurting people that I love...help!