Feeling very low

Last week I was doing a bit better. I spent time with family and that always helps. But this week I feel lonely now inside. I feel so low the last few days that I can't even cry. I feel like nothing.

A man who has been my friend for some time and who has feelings for me makes me feel nothing and he's a beautiful friend. I don't seem to be able to feel like I used to, I feel kind of numb whereas before I was a really sensitive person. I don't seem to care that much about anything or anyone right now when really I know I care about everyone so much.

Is this normal?

Okay, this is making me teary now just saying that.

I feel like he took a part of me and I don't feel like I can trust again or want to be close to someone again. It's not just the relationship side but how he said he would be there still, I feel like I lost my best friend too. He can't even be polite to me or treat me like a fellow human being.

It races in my head thinking if the new woman has told him not to talk to me or if he feels he just can't or if he just doesn't care. Does he forget how he said he'd be there still? It's like she's taken over everything and she's so good that I'm now nothing.