Feeling so tired

Oh yes the going out. I had internet dates 7 nights/week for a while. They were jerks every last one of them but the preparing, dressing, going etc etc were effective distractions - until it was time to come home again. And I will jump in my car and drive 500-800 miles, just to be moving and disconnected from reality. Again, temporary relief. And yes waking up from the blessed unconsciousness of sleep is particularly - pardon - nightmarish.

I have no appetite - then I am ravenous. Then I feel sick to my stomach. I sleep in then I am awake all night. I want to stay in forever or want to go out and never come home. It's maddening. I wish I had amnesia.

Completely, totally normal. Those first few months for me were exactly as you and everyone else has described, for the reasons you described them. I literally couldn't make myself do anything more than sit all day and stare at the walls. That sounds dramatic, but it's the truth - it's exactly what I did. Being around people, even my family, was exhausting. I had no energy for or desire to do housework, laundry, yard work, cook, anything. All I could do was obsess about what had happened and why. Sleep was an escape, but those first moments after waking up were awful because I remembered, and it all came back. IT DOES GET BETTER!!! One day at a time, one hour at a time - just keep going. Be kind and gentle with yourself. Don't give up.

Yes it's a curious, profound, unremitting exhaustion. And yet I can't sleep either. And, this from a former food-lover (at times to excess) - food doesn't taste good. Movies bore me. Can't concentrate enough to read, let alone write. Can't sit still to catch some rays of sun, which I loved to do in the past. Nothing nothing nothing feels right or good. But I will stop complaining long enough to say it is good to know others who understand this complete inertia.

yes, so days i felt like i was walking thru treacle, my legs, my whole body felt like a lead weight...when i told therapist one day that i couldnt make the appointment,she kindly spent time on the phone with me, she said it is depression, you will feel so drained, there was so much DRAMA, that what you didnt relise at the time with him, you were running on ADRENELIN, she was right, so when i stopped seeing him, it kicked in how anxious i was when i was with him, how i was always waiting for him to TURN ON A SIXPENCE, or when i went to meet him, i would be thinking, i bet he wont turn up, or if he turned up he would sometimes say, if you start today , i will fxxk off, i cannot comprehend how i could had stayed in this toxic ,horrible friendship, and what the AFTERMATH, would be...bad enough that i stayed in it for those years, but was still going to suffer such after affects.... it will get better it does take time, you have to take it sometimes hour by hour, then day by day, but you will get there...

Me too. Compounded with grief, CD, anxiety, worry, loneliness, sadness, pain. All very draining. I tell myself, its over. Dont think about it anymore.

You describe the feeling very well , it is a unique pain hard to put into words and impossible to explane with someone who has never felt it , breaking up with a psychopath is no ordinary break up , there are many stages of recovory but there really is a way to recovor and move on and many of us here have been where your at . You have found the board and that is the first stage because you realiszed something was very wrong with your realtionship and you went serching for answers , a huge pat on the back for that to you . The key to recovory is in the six steps , no contact , education and sharing with others your experience and my favorite is to journal , in a while , when the fog has lifted a bit you will begin to see there is light . Big love Scoop x

yes. same here. sick and tired and weary as hell. not only due to my sociopath husband's harassment, his parents harassing me, but also because i have no escape.