Feeling pathetic

Hi, I'm new here and still very much learning how to negotiate my way through this painful thing that has happened...from reading about others' experiences over the past few weeks I realise that I have probably got off lightly from a Narc who came and went in my life within a matter of just a few months...but I'm still being pathetic about it and can't seem to maintain the NC, even though all contact since he dumped me has been initiated by me.

I still can't seem to grasp that he doesn't act like a normal feeling person and this morning, stupidly I texted him to say that although he probably didn't care, I just wanted him to know that my son had done well enough in his exams to get into University and that I was thrilled. I just thought he might be pleased as he had really got on well with my son. I've heard nothing back and I'm upset about that.

I know this probably sounds really pathetic and I feel really pathetic for expecting anything more than the deafening silence that he is giving me.

I'm usually strong and resilient but this man has really got to me good and proper and I'm hurting a lot.

Reading advice and experiences from others on here really does help though.