Feeling inadequate.
Feeling inadequate.
Hello ladies,
Its been a while, since I actually felt anything, Ive been pretty numb and pretty angry. More so with myself. Ive been narc free for almost 4 months now. He has called a few times and ive ignored him. However as I am best friends with his cousin so Ive seen him a few times. My therapist told me to treat the relationship as if we shared a child, "ignore him, go about your business, zero attention" Which I have done pretty well.
However, just recently things have started bothering me, I have read so much and trust me I know the answers, I guess Im just venting and looking for a little encouragement.
He has new supply, a few of them from what I understand, and I dont know why but its making me ill. I have read "now he's happier with her" about 100 times. So
I know at some point, these women will become me.
However I cannot shake the inadequate feeling, the feeling of not trusting my gut long ago and leaving, the loving someone who is so horrible. Being told so many times
to walk away and thinking I could be the one who makes him change. IM SUCH AN IDIOT. I wish the thoughts of him would go away, the picturing him having sex with someone else would go away, and the thoughts that I failed myself will stop.
Im having a horrible day my thoughts are consuming me, I have no one to talk to today, so im posting here.
Thanks ladies.
don't let yourself fall into that trap!!
It NEVER ends...
next time
Way to GO!!!
it's not your fault
you're not alone
Just like you
Whatever
whatever2009...
Aceonelady
you know...I still can't
Little things
loveofmylife
I'm glad you wrote this
Reading all of these posts
It could have been me who wrote that
narcmagnent I wonder if we
narcmagnet
Tiredofthinking...
woundedsoul36
tiredofthinking
loveofmylife
tiredofthinking
Hey there Loveofmylife