Feeling like a HS senior!

After 8+ months of absolute NC... I'm finally feeling like I could be close to "graduating." I got it. I get it. He's a loser with nothing to offer except a pretty face, warm body and male parts -- news flash "They're a dime a dozen!" Work on yourself, LOVE yourself, be grateful for the present, and set your intentions every single day (or 50 times a day). For all the newbies: please come here and read EVERYTHING. Some of it will apply to your situation and some won't, but ALL of it is helpful. You might ask, "Is he a narc or just selfish?" The answer: it doesn't matter; if you're here, he's not right for you. And you deserve BETTER.

As with breaking any addiction, there are good days and bad days... and eventually the good outweighs the bad! And this site is INVALUABLE for recovery. I love you all and am eternally grateful for your time, advice, support and lessons.

Some observations and realizations:

1. My entire 2.5 year relationship with the N was designed for him to "get revenge" on his XW. They have a messed up "dance" and it's good to be free of the drama of triangulation. What a waste of my precious time.

2. I would never in a million years post all the fakey couple photos and mushy sentiments on FB with a new relationship for all the world to see ... even if I really hoped to make an ex feel jealous. That's his game, and it is STUPID as hell and completely immature - he's a 42-yr old toddler. I could care less what (or who) he's doing. Deactivate from FB for just a month and get outside...see how good it feels!

3. I went to a fabulous Halloween party last night and danced and had fun and wasn't stressed over whether my date was having a good time. This is something I NEVER could have done with the N. He always managed to take the joy out of everything. Negative supply was better than being ignored, I guess.

So I just wanted to check in and reaffirm that there is a light when you do the work, see the blessing of your unfortunate encounter, read read read, volunteer or get a hobby, and work on living the BEST life for YOU. The heck with him and his irrelevant, insignificant self. With love. :)