Feeling angry
Feeling angry
I know it is the best thing to be away from my N and I am so glad that I am on the road to healing.
But there is one thing that particularly today is really getting to me. How my N just seems to get away with his awful behaviour.
It is so hard knowing that he is out there now, with so many people thinking he is wonderful and charming and kind - and talented too! He works in the music area and I know just from hearing stuff (not that I go out to try and find out - but just because I am interested in this stuff) that he is doing really well at the moment. People demi worship him and tell him he is great, wonderful and that just feeds his ego so much. I hate the fact he is having a wonderful time after making me - and so many other women - feel like complete crap.
I know I am a worthy person and worth so much more than him, but the fact he does not suffer one bit and gets away with it all makes me want to punch the wall. It is so unfair that evil does not seem to be punished - and in fact since we parted around a month ago, when he threatened to ruin me and my family - his career has suddenly shot up! It is insane.
I know I have to forget all this but it is this that is maybe the hardest thing to bear. I certainly never ever want to see him again - he is sick and the stories I have heard about his past are just awful. He has been an emotional bully to so many, yet is currently lording it around london thinking he is gods gift to women and the music business.
I know that feeling well...
I feel your pain
So true
The Anger is all that is left in me
I agree and I think that's
anger
here's whay
I know that he has not