Feel pulled back down again :(
Feel pulled back down again :(
I'm sliding backwards. I was doing much better the last while coping with the ex-N at work. Lately I had started sleeping better, eating normally, and generally feeling good again (after the whole scenario with the OW).
I think this change in me botherd the ex-N. He has been trying to be friendly and recreate the past, but I keep him at arm's length. I laugh more and do my thing.
I guess he must be getting tired of the effort to be friendly bc this week he suddenly started ignoring me. He isn't coming by to say hello and gave me a blank, distant look the other day when I said goodbye. I know what he's doing: he's giving me what I'm giving him, the desire to be acquaintances only. We don't interact much as it is. But his change in attitude is noticeable.
I know that is actually desirable. But the upsetting part is that he is talking to a new woman with whom he has been flirting for a while. Yesterday he walked in and giggled as he passed by her. He chatted w/ her and laughed and then went back over to her desk a few minutes later to talk over something else. I could hear it though he lowered his voice. I think they were coming in from an event that, last year, I helped him with. That was a painful realization.
He has timed his conversations with me around her presence the last few months as well.
I'm not sure what is going on, but this conversation was pretty blatant. I couldn't sleep properly last night....All worked up again....
It feels like a slowly growing repeat of the horrible situation with the OW. I know I shouldn't care what the asshole does. But I don't want to witness another tryst in front of my face and I'm still FURIOUS that he appears to get more supply.....
Frustrated with supply
Rinalda
Hahahahah
Also LMAO! tears in my eyes!
LMAO!!
Hmmm,
Or in the words of Al Pachino as Scarface...
Cockroaches seem to serve SOME purpose..
Well said, Susan
Good News it, that pretty,
yikes
Rinalda,
Thank you