Feel like crap

I woke up feeling crap. I am so tired of narcs! I read other posts and get angry for all of you. I am so mad that he just got a four bedroom house that he promised me he would buy me !!!! I'm here alone with his son in the ghetto!!!! Wtf!!!! I hate him!!! I freaking hate him. I want to be over this piece of crap not even A man!!!!! I've been doing so good lately! Why all the sudden.... Oh and I had a dream he was cheating on me with an Amish woman all night ( dumb) but I'm freaking spinning!!!