Fed up tonight.

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#1 May 28 - 2PM
booboo35
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Fed up tonight.

Hi all how is everyone? Am feeling a bit low tonight, And angry sometimes i miss him other times i dont am really angry as well, I wish i could just feel normal again, Sometimes i think these feelings will never go away, If i could just manage 18 month NC do u think i will be better? How long does it take to feel healed? x

May 28 - 7PM
Deidre40
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Aw, I am sorry you're feeling

Aw, I am sorry you're feeling this way. Know that these feelings will ebb and flow. One day, you will no longer feel low. You will no longer feel stuck. You'll have happiness once again. :) I promise. But, this part of it. We have to ride it ALL out. Can't skip any stages of grieving. Because once we make it through to the other side, great rewards lie ahead. Just keep riding the wave.
May 28 - 6PM
deecbee
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18 months NC... whew, I wish.

18 months NC... whew, I wish. I have had a hard time making it 7 days recently. But in the past, I always noticed a distinct difference at the 2 week mark. Not totally healed, obviously, but to the point where doing NC didn't take every ounce of strength in my body. It felt more effortless after 2 weeks.
May 28 - 5PM
hryan77
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booboo

I'm so sorry...I can relate. Yesterday I was sobbing, I can't figure out why...I was supposed to go out tonight and just want to stay home...I know I shouldn't isolate myself, but I keep cycling through anger, depression/sadness, feeling free and optimistic...I can't seem to pick a mood and go with it. Just finally read the blog on why the narcissist chooses us...all I can say is wow and now I'm thinking too much, because my exN always claimed I was the one that hurt him...even the day I left told me I had hurt him maybe beyond repair and if I left him he knew I'd be over him like I have gotten over everyone else. Then a few hours later I found out about another he had cheated with and he told me it was over and done...and I left, he had someone else the next day. I'm so confused.
May 28 - 5PM (Reply to #6)
booboo35
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Hi all and thanks for your

Hi all and thanks for your advice. am upset as he is trying to get to me still. My son saw his face book page before and said how much he is in love with his new girlfriend, How the fuck can he be in love with her when he was knocking at mine on tue night??? Lol he is such a knob head, He was putting all over his fb page about me please booboo phone me, I love you, About 20 times, I told my son not to tell me anything about him as i dont want to no, I just do not understand him, I know even if i spoke to him again it would just be poison coming from his mouth. x

STAY STRONG!! XX

May 28 - 5PM
Alibi_10
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Booboo

Hope you feel better tomorrow, sorry you have been fed up. Don't think miserable windy weather helps - from reading on here, it does seem to take a while for the feelings to go away, but you do seem a strong person and resolved - there are success stories, keep reading on here, and it is good that you have a loving family to keep you strong. Hugs x
May 28 - 2PM
dudette
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Boo

Sorry to see that you are not doing great..... and bloody titanic on the telly really does not help ( I thnk you are in the UK right?)i Well I am banking on the 18 months NC myself. I have been NC for 6 months now and the difference that it makes is very very considerable... I still get down sometimes but this is more to do with my current situation, my marriage and all that kind of stuff...nothing more to do with the N, issues that used the dxist before him, that I have to resolve in my own head... so on the narc front alone, I can tall you that 6 months NC has b rought me to the apathy / acceptance stage when it comes to IT I hope this helps Take good care Dx
May 28 - 2PM (Reply to #2)
booboo35
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Thank you Dudette, I just

Thank you Dudette, I just feel really lonley tonight too, I am just gonna ride the wave and see if i feel any better tomorrow, My mum is going to do dinner for me. I love my family there what keeps me going, I dont really have many good friends when i was ex narc he isolated me, Or either slept with them behind my back, I do find it very hard to trust people, He ripped my heart out and stomped all over it!! He is a arse hole!!! x

STAY STRONG!! XX

May 28 - 2PM (Reply to #3)
dudette
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Boo

I am rreally sorry, it absolutely sucks and for a while I was convinced that my N had slept with every single female I had in my groups of friends, colleagues etc... He did one or two people from work I know but I can only imagine the rest... It's unthinkable that such people exist... Sod Titanic , I have decided to pour myself a large glass of wine and watch kill bill instead ;-) Get some rest and hope you feel better soon Dx