Fear regarding the future
Fear regarding the future
I think a part of what kept me with my N is that I am at a time in my life where i really wanted a baby more than anything in the world. He really wanted it too (so I thought). So when he would behave badly i would just imagine a cute little angel in my arms (I even have names for a boy and a girl) and i would think.... well, maybe it's not so bad.... I can tolerate him and maybe he will be different when we have the baby. I also figured that if i have to leave him, well i am absolutely capable of taking care of the baby on my own.
I am afraid that he was my last shot. I am 38 yrs old. It is so difficult to meet men.... a good one. I dont want to do artificial insemination- however i might have too.
Like eveyone else, I want a husband and child. My fear is that i will never have that in my life. I have a great career, but there is a big void in my life. I would love to come home to a husband and child.
Can any of you relate to this? My biological clock is likely nearly up and i have no options. I spoke to a fertility specialist (all the testing was done). He says things look good at this point, however of course recommends that I try to get pregnant soon. He even told me to consider donor sperm... i started to cry. I guess hearing that made me feel like I have to buy a baby. Like no one wants me so i have to purchase the sperm of some stranger.
This hurts me so much!!
I'm not sure what to do.
I can't relate to the baby
I hear what you all are saying... however suppose it is too late
jessika
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