Favorite lines

"For consider your call, brethren, not many of you were wise according to worldly standards, not many were powerful, not many were of noble birth, but God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise, God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong, God chose what is weak and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God."-1 Corinthians 1:26-29 "First, however, you must dress yourself in women's clothes."-Dionysus to Pentheus in Euripides' "Bacchae." Pentheus is a psychopath-he plans to massacre the female worshippers of Dionysus. Dionysus advises Pentheus to spy on the Maeneads by dressing as a woman. The consequences are kind of gruesome. Pentheus proves the quote that male Ns/Ps hate women because they aren't women. "How cruel a torment, to avow that a rival is worthy of being happy!"-This is from Jean-Baptiste Lully's opera "Atys." Knowing how Ns/Ps triangulate, this is fitting.

Sorry can't remember the source but: 'the hottest love has the coldest end'

"If he were single, would you still want him?"-This is what a friend asked me during the final D&D after I met the ex-Psych prof's girlfriend/future wife. Now that I think about it... NO WAY... I'll be grateful for what I have (and what I didn't get) I guess I don't want a fat robotic bore who can't come up with an original idea. ANYBODY else can have him! That's what Craigslist, Plenty of Fish and OK Cupid are for.

Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. Rather it makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how wonderful it will be when the right one comes along. -Javan When the door of happiness closes, another opens. But often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. -Unknown It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lost it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. -Unknown The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. -Unknown Time heals griefs and quarrels, for we change and are no longer the same persons. -Pascal Letting go has never been easy, but holding on can be as difficult. Yet strength is measured not by holding on, but by letting go. -Len Santos We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us. -E.M. Forster Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go. -Heman Hesse You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do. -Eleanor Roosevelt We do not understand: Joy.....until we face sorrow Faith.....until it is tested Peace....until faced with conflict Trust....until we are betrayed Love...until it is lost Hope...until confronted with doubts -Unknown

"'Oh, you know him?' said (Marya Ignatevna) Peronskaya.'I can't bear him. He (Prince Andrei) is too proud for anything. Takes after his father. And he's hand in glove with Speransky (the liberal reformer),writing some projects or other. Just look how he treats the ladies! There's one talking to him, and he has turned away.' she said, pointing at him.'I'd give it him if he treated me as he does those ladies.'"-Marya Peronskaya warning Natasha Rostov against Prince Andrei at Natasha's first ball. Prince Andrei is a cerebral Narc... and Marya's premonitions come true. This is from Leo Tolstoy's "War and Peace." The lesson here? Listen to other people, and listen to your intuition! Marya's prophecy comes true. Andrei does treat Natasha badly. The red flags were there. It's up to us to be awake and aware of them.

I don't know which one I like more: "I wouldn't cheat on you if they were buy one, get one free" or "I wouldn't cheat on you for $180m dollars" .......OR.... after confronting him on his lies, he raged: "you are a broke-ass MF" and "you Fu#%ing slut". Only 10 min earlier, he told me he loved me. Hmmmm,, decisions, decisions.

Describes him to a tee....... BARENAKED LADIES LYRICS "Never Do Anything" Wiped out down the stairs I'll bet you there's a song in there I'm not sure I'm prepared to write it down That guy should be me I'd look much better on t.v. Then the world would see That I can do anything I can be that But soon you'll see that I will never do anything Let's play tic tac toe I'll play X, you can be the O. Thoughts of turning pro Have crossed my mind I could make a mint Fill my pockets with more than lint I'll give you a hint It involves the "internet" I can be that But soon you'll see that I will never do anything I can be that But soon you'll see that I will never do anything Don't write me off as an also ran Just mark me down as an angry man Got a big chip, you want a fat lip? How 'bout a mouthful of Chiclets? Life passed me by, but it's not my fault I'll lick my wounds, could you pass the salt? I can be that, but soon you'll see that I will never do anything If I were the king All my subjects they would dance and sing They could kiss my ring And kiss my ass When I'm old and grey I'll look back on my life and say "Give me one more day, And I'll still never do anything." I can be that but soon you'll see that I will never do anything I can be that But soon you'll see that I will never do anything I can be that But soon you'll see that I will never do anything I can be that But soon you'll see that I will never do anything

These are quotes from songs I have liked for a long number of years. It wasn't until after being with the Narc that I saw an even deeper meaning. "Segments of my life, morbid pieces of reality. Twisted personality. Many faces yet faceless. Familiar things give way to strange. No mercy. No reason. Just pain." -Slayer "Terrible lie. You make me throw it all away. My morals left to decay. How many you'll betray? You've taken everything. My head is filled with disease. My skin is begging you please. I'm on my hands and knees. I want so much to believe. You fucking PROMISED me!" -Nine Inch Nails

Favorite Quote: To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. Ralph Waldo Emerson

NH telling me: i feel dead inside

"I didn't fall for you. You tripped me." This perfectly describes xnh's behavior when I first met him.

"He is not worth your tears"-Dolly Oblonsky giving advice to Princess Kitty about Constantine Levin (who's a cerebral Narc), well, Kitty marries him anyhow in "Anna Karenina" Still, it's good advice. Not worth the tears.

Take me as I am... Or watch me as I go

When I die, I would like to go peacefully, in my sleep, like my grandfather did. Not screaming and yelling like the passenger in his car. LOL!