Easter

Last Easter I had pneumonia and XN had to go to a bar! Not my usual Easter but I have not had a normal holiday since I met the prick.

I was so sick. He had to play bar games and I felt like I could barely stand up plus I could not stop coughing. In front of other people he yelled at me to "stop coughing". I nearly died of embarrassment. I'm not sure if the people around us thought me pathetic or him a monster but I just wanted to run. After a few hours of entertaining his need to get drunk we decide to go get something to eat. I felt so horrible and demeaned that I started to cry in the car where I got told "don't start that bullshit crying, I hate that." We went to Applebees, ordered food and he proceeded to sit there and loudly, racially talk about the black family sitting near us because their baby was making noise. He literally used the N word and if that wasnt enough to make me want to crawl under the table he turned back to me and told me that if I could not have an orgasm every time we had sex that he could not be with me because he NEEDED me to do that every time. (Of course this was all my fault! It could not be that his 12 pump action wasnt always enough to get me the result he NEEDED)

This year I fully intend to buy an Easter Lily, eat some ham and some GD nasty marshmallow peeps even if it means making it for myself and being alone. I will never have another holiday memory like that one.