Don't even know what to title this..........
Don't even know what to title this..........
I had the strangest conversation last night with a girlfriend of mine and thought I would share it here. I don't quite know how to feel about it, my head is swimming a bit, confusion, shock, dismay.........not sure what to think. Thought I would share and see what the general concensus is here on the forum.
I have struggled for some time as some of you know, with one of my "best" friends since my husband left me for the OW. She seemed absent, during most of my pain and suffering, and I could not understand why. I chalked it up to some can handle your emotional needs, others can't. But last night, I believe I have not necessarily closure on it, but at least an answer and am not quite sure what to make of it.
She refused repeatedly to come to my home, was abnormally upset when I met narc #2, when everyone else was excited about the prospect of a first date, she was out of her mind and acted child-like, no one could make sense of her behavior. She wouldn't come to keep me company, she refused to help me pack up the house, I even asked if she would just come, sit with me, drink a glass of wine, while I packed up the kitchen, because I just could not bear to be alone for another night while doing that terrible chore of packing up the life that I once knew, she refused. She later admitted that she could not come to the house, it was full of too many memories, and was too painful for her. I thought that strange, but than again, she was a bit strange.
Anyway, we had words quite some time ago, after she refused to join me for dinner on my first wedding anniversary alone. I finally poured out all of my feelings to her about how she had been behaving. She stopped speaking to me for a very long time. We just started mending our fences, persay, and in a conversation last night about Mike and the divorce and how I had discovered so much and come so far. I told her that the divorce was absolutely the most heart-wrenching experiences of my life and for him to attempt to come back was a set-back, but not for long. Her response..........
"Susan, you weren't the only one that was divorced" Which led me to think the direction she was going was to explain that many people get divorced. That wasn't the case. She exclaimed that she also suffered a divorce. Her words, "Mike divorced me too, you weren't the only one that he left and divorced, this was just as hard for me as it was for you" and than asked if I understood that? That she too had suffered. She too was in a fog for a year. And she too was left for another woman. That I need to understand that she was dealing with the SAME pain.......really?????????
What do I even say to a comment like that? I was floored to say the least. I could not wrap my head around any of what she was saying. No, they did not have an affair. I know that as well as Iknow my own name, so I don't want you to think that is a possibility. But I believe, some how, that she was in love with my husband and viewed him as her husband as well in some ways. She even said at one point that he was like her husband also.
I find this to be disturbing on so many different levels. I was speechless, and it is making me sick to my stomach just thinking about it. Don't know what to think, didn't see this coming at all. I just summed her up as not having the coping skills needed to help me through this, to find out that she couldn't help me, because she herself was going through the "same" thing when he left.
Any thoughts?
Alicat, what a sweet thing to
Sparrow when I read this my
Everyone, I appreciate your
Sparrow
UK and Winter
Hi Sparrow
Sparrow
I think she loved your
Mainly
I'm just shocked. Speechless
Sparrow
Thanks for the chuckle
Hunter, I don't want to talk
Hmmm....Sounds like she was "emotional" Narc supply
Goldie.. You are correct.. My
Thank you Goldie. I know
omg
sparrow
That's it, Sparrow
Yikes, echoes of mine
Ha ha; good one Hermes
Everyone wants to claim dibbs to the narc
lol
Should read "Goldie"
Still think
Hermes
I have to agree with Used..
is it contagious???
I dont know what to say. Is
Used.......... Fuck, I think