Remember me???! lol I have been busy in a good way, enjoying the holidays, esp. with my son. My latest revelation is being present in the moment and being grateful for the many blessings in my life.
Glad to hear your holidays were good and the shopping sounds awesome! You'll get a grip here and will stop spending soon.
Hey guess what??? I went to the gym today and walked for 30 minutes on treadmill and sat in steam room and sauna and sweated. I have been sick the last 4-5 days, so it felt really good to get up and finally do it! It was a slower pace walk but I don't want to over due it. So, anyway, that makes me feel good!
The narc did not try to contact me over the holidays either. What a huge blessing...I feel him slipping farther and farther away and me becoming less and less emotionally addicted. 2011 will be narc free...I will be free from fears, free from emotional trauma and pain, free from abuse. Free. My only goals I have right now are 1. my physical well being with eating right and exercisng and losing this last weight....2. I will be out of debt in July ( 4 years-- we paid close $80,000 off), and 3. finishing my 18 months of recovery and healing. The are huge long term goals that I have invested over a year on each of these...I can't wait to achieve them this year! And the narc has nothing to do with it. This is my work, and my guts and determination...IT IS ME! So this is my year, and he is not going to be in it. And I am getting better and better with that!
I have been thinking of you and let's do the workout! I am goign again tomorrow!
xoxo!
Sherry
Happy Holiday's to you! It sounds like you are doing great! I just came back on a few weeks ago again with the same issue and I think I've finally learned my lesson with NC.
I'm glad you are here or just visiting us. You sound very positive and upbeat! Good for You!!
Happy1
I am doing better and in a strange way it has been a blessing that he stopped speaking to me and the more time that elapses I feel the wound is not as deep dont get me wrong its still very deep but just not as deep. When I think of the emotional torture this man has put me thru over the years its just unbelievable.
I have been shopping like crazy for clothes for some reason it perks me up to have new clothes but Im going broke! Sounds as though you are doing better. I slipped a little and cried a little before bed. I have spoken to the Narc since early October and Im still a mess but Im gonna survive. You will too!
Sounds like shopping is a little therapeutic and I've done a little lately myself. It's good to treat ourselves when we are feeling down. But you sound very strong and that's excellent! We still need to cry I believe for the loss, but you are right. We will be ok! Shopping for clothes sounds fun and you're giving me ideas to go shopping for some! haha! I need to! 8-)
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