did i do wrong?
did i do wrong?
I have recently split from my partner of 2 years and have been really struggling to come to terms with the nasty stuff that was said. We only ever had three arguments in two years and every time it ended with him walking out. So I guess I bottled up some feelings and concerns. Anyway to cut a long story short, after the last argument I have decided that enough is enough and we can longer get back together although I miss him desperately, we had such good times 90% of the time. I took quite a lot of verbal put downs when he came to collect his stuff and moved out and I sat and took it. Then once he had finally gone, I sent him an email about narcassism and told him that he was one, this led to a few nasty emails being exchanged him telling me 'not to contact him again as he does not need my kind of poison in his life', and me responding 'dont worry, i wont, I need to protect myself from blood sucking leeches like you'. It was really out of character for me as I do not express anger ever..... just sadness.... anyway Im struggling to make sense of what has happened and send this email below yesterday..... I have not had a response, and if I am honest I did not want one unless it was an apology, but what I wanted to ask was, do u think I have done myself more damage for sending it? I know he has read it as he has removed me and my son from facebook....
here goes...
> I know its over and i truely don't think we should get back together
> anymore, you went to far with your opinions the other day and I had
> the wake up call I needed, you kicked me while i was down and was
> very nasty, as I see it, some of the things u said were valid, like
> smoking, burying my head in the sand but the rest was soooo far off
> the planet I thought I was talking to a mad man, which is why i
> didnt respond at the time. I don't want to spend time with someone
> as negative as you I want someone positive in my life that's willing
> and happy to give things a go and does not live in the past. You
> have to learn from the past and let it go. I have a niggle in my
> mind that i went to far with the narcassist info, which is why I'm
> writing this, although you do have a lot of the traits. I guess I
> had took so much verbal abuse and put downs over the past week from
> you that I wanted to hurt you too. I'm not a nasty person, never
> have been but I was pushed too far and I don't like the outcome as
> it's not in my nature to be cruel and something I find hard to live
> with. But its time now to move on and forget the past and say
> sorry for the hurt caused, and I'm sorry for any I caused to you.
>
> I truely did think i loved mr Jekyll, and im really struggling with
> my feelings, but Hyde is probably the nastiest person I have ever
> come accross, he is heartless....you should loose him, he seriously
> is holding u back in life.....
>
> I wish u well...
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