DEVALUATION AND DISCARDING IN REVERSE LOL!!

Good! That makes it easier when they are no longer physically attractive to you. I think I am going through D&D in reverse and it feels SO GOOD. He made a few weak attempts at contact and I haven't responded. They deserve nothing more, nothing less than our complete disgust

There's a picture of the ex-Psych prof at my college's website. He isn't referred to by name... but I can tell it's him. He looks totally creepy in the picture, with a vacant smile on his face&blank eyes. On top of it all, he's gotten FAT. Not slightly chunky. Over 4 years, he aged so fast, and he didn't even hit the gym to please his live-in girlfriend. He didn't even drop the pounds for his girlfriend from LA. Talk about LAZY!!!!

Now that I see N for what he really is, just looking at him makes me want to puke. And when he tries to give me a kiss (moving out shortly) uggg, I have to hold my vomit it. Yes I have discarded him, disgusting N!

Devaluing and Discard in Reverse. Just before the breakup on Valentine's Day, I had sent him a large chocolate, Roses and a card with money inside. I did it up big. He seemed pleased, and when he started sucking on the chocolate (we were on vidcam), suddenly he looked like this old, ugly decrepit THING...I mean super nasty looking! I didn't want to touch him! I was puzzled and couldn't understand why he suddenly looked so loathsome to me! Instead of his age of 66, he looked more like about 85-95 years old and like he belonged someplace such as in an old folks home! He didn't look sexy or desirable at all. Was I seeing his real self that he keeps hidden from the world? I hadn't paid a lot of attention previous weeks on his darkening behavior - him putting me down all the time, making all kinds insults. He'd been complaining a lot about the vidcam time we spent together, always saying he was too busy etc. Shortly after, I backed off, and got sick for several days apparently delaying his discard. Once I was well again, I tried working things out. When I did finally reconnect with him, he started talking all kinds of gibberish like "you can't see through your skull!" What the hell is that? I think the real X was bleeding through. Yes, now I'm glad we broke up and I feel so much more healthier now. Have met several new men who do find me attractive unlike him. They actually are normal and good looking unlike poor, ugly old looking Brent! Hahaha. What did I ever see in that pathetic old bastard! His new woman can have him - and she isn't getting much if anything. He tried to make out on his website what what hot stuff he was (NOT!), and bragging how the new woman was servicing him like a $2 hooker, bragging about her having money and a nice home, and what all she can do for him. (It's always about him, like a true narc!) It was a fairy-tale come true and magical. Hahaha. As we all know, narcs repeat the same cycle over and over again. He's doing the same to her as he's done to every woman. I don't envy her. She's going from bullet-train fast forwarding to train-wreck crack-up. These guys never change, ever! She can try, but I know for a fact he's impotent and can't keep it up any significant length of time. Pew! Nasty! He was the worst lay I ever had in my life by far! He was disgusting! He isn't a man. He's an opportunistic parasite, toxic and evil!