Day 2 NC..struggling

Ok so it is only day two and a couple hours ago I got the urge.. I am struggling so much right now I just want to cry! I don't know why.. Maybe because it's Friday, the weekend is here it's a beautiful day and I have no one to spend it with. Today.. It HURTS. As far as I know there is no OW.. At least not physically.. If there is it is probably through trying to pick someone up via internet.. Dating sites.. CL etc. Reason being up until last Monday we were still seeing each other. I can't seem to stop thinking about what he is doing, what his plans are and who he might be seeing.. If he has met someone else already.. Blah blah. I believe he gets his supply from his family right now but they are all in Florida. Why the hell am I even thinking or caring about what he is doing? Why am I obsessing over him and why do I have overwhelming all consuming desire to text him so much? Just to see if he will answer or ignore? I am so afraid I am going to cave that I feel sick and want to cry!