Damn I was happy
Damn I was happy
I dont know why I am in such a funk lately too. Maybe its the holidays, or the wintertime, PMS?
Either way, I feel like hell, and I dont have anyone to talk to, my 2 family members feel like I am on a pity wagon. I try to do yoga, meditate, eat organically, smile, positive talk..nothing is working! I want to heal my inner child, and be happy. But I havent a clue how. I need a therapist, but cant afford one. Maybe I should start a free support group in my area, because I BET there are many more people out there, like me. My own father was a psychopath, that never loved his 4 children, my mom was a victim. I am tired of being a victim, and sick of being SICK.
I cried so much today my head hurts. I felt like I had 1 best friend in the world, he made me feel like I could trust him, share anything with him, he played the healer, the nurturer, then POOF he is gone, without a trace, as if I didnt exist for 8 years and we didnt share the depths of our souls. We I shared my soul, he clearly didnt have one! And it was all a facade?
Oh it hurts so unbelieveablly.
And people tell me, whats the big deal..he played you, they shrug and say dont care..get over it. How can I not care? How do I get over it???
This world is filled with zombies, that think emotions ARE A BAD THING! Well the ARE NOT! They are the essense of being HUMAN. And I am tired of people making me feel nuts for having feelings! How can anyone even feel like they will find a decent human man, when the world has clearly gone cold. I dont want to join them. I have so much love inside and no one to give it to.
I am sorry everyone for my funk mode, but I feel so alone and journaling is getting boring, so I took this to my other safe place, this forum.
Thank you for letting me vent, I welcome all advice, comments and opinions. :)
Love, SG
Dear Anari
Thank you winter :)
Ok, Savegaia
Glad you came here SG
I agree no one gets how this
((HUGS BACK!))
Hugs to you savegaia. I hear
Right there with you
Thanks jenjen!