congratulations to me
congratulations to me
I'm feeling stronger today.
Usually the weekends are the hardest, I continually find myself feeling sad, lonely,wondering what happened, thinking about what he might be doing, where he might be and who he might be with.
Today, I kept myself busy, tried not to give myself too much time to let my mind wonder. I did it.
I think I had a 'light bulb moment'.
How dare he treat me as if I didn't matter. I matter. We all matter.
I have seen him for who he really is, I know that he is unhealthy for me, I know I felt less and less happy when I was waiting for him to call, message, answer my calls etc...
I feel calmer now 3 weeks NC. I'm not anxiously waiting for him to get in touch. I haven't sent a message and am now waiting for a reply, wondering why he isn't replying.
I know now that he played me. I'm not ok with that, but at least the shitty feelings are subsiding.
I have remembered who I am, I have remembered that I'm a good person who deserves more,..deserves much better.
So, tomorrow I'm going to splash out, go a little crazy myself. I'm going to buy myself a fabulous bag that I've had my eye on for longer than I can remember.
I'm going to start being good to myself, I deserve it.
It's a present to myself for staying NC and realising that I'm better of without that toxic piece of shit in my life. Congratulations to me for finally seeing/getting it.
It was a close call, he had the ability to pull me down fast, well, I'm not drowning for that sucker, I'm coming up for air, and It's starting to feel good.
Wow red, that awesome you ate
Bravo, Red!
You go girl!!!!
Dear ff, Think of how he's
hahahaha.....
good for you....!!!
Ohhh, lovely. Time to start
you really do sound to be
Yeah, feeling positive today.
Red
ha ha Red... funny!!!! I went
Good for you. You do deserve