Confession (need tips/advice)

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#1 Jan 21 - 8AM
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Confession (need tips/advice)

Hello Everyone,

It has been a little over 10 months since the D&D. It has been about 8 weeks since the last hoover. And it has been about 3 weeks of NC. I know that isn't a long period of time and that maybe I should be a bit forgiving of myself. But I am really struggling with some behavior that I want to stop. However, like most of the books and Web sites say--unhooking from a N is like quitting a drug. I have no desire to reach out in any way. However, I have this really bad habit of looking at his FB account and the account of who I believe to be his new gf (victim). Both profiles are private. His band's profile, however, is public. I can tell that he and her are hitting it off. It DOES hurt. And it is morbid curiosity. I have thought long and hard about this and I know the reason I look is because I am looking for confirmation that he is going to do the same thing to her that he did to me. And I am looking for karma (that old "what goes around comes around" thing). I realize that his PD is karma enough for him. But at the same time, I think he deserves more karma for what he has done. This behavior/thought process is not beneficial to me, I know. It only keeps me in his twisted life and it does not help me heal!

I am scheduling a 1 on 1 with Goldie today. Other than that (and continuing to read and post so I can get over this once and for all)...has anyone had a hard time discontinuing looking at FB or other things? And if so, has anyone had success in stopping? What were the methods used? Cold turkey? Posting a reminder of how awful he was, like a list, next to your computer?

Thanks so much for reading, the help, and responses.

Jan 21 - 5PM
brinamarie
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Ive said it before, ill say

Jan 22 - 11AM (Reply to #25)
Newlife2013
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Thanks, Brina

Jan 22 - 2PM (Reply to #26)
brinamarie
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My ex N was a techy computer

Jan 22 - 3PM (Reply to #27)
Newlife2013
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Brina, you're kidding me...

Jan 21 - 11AM
Mina
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This is what I did..

Jan 21 - 4PM (Reply to #23)
Newlife2013
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Great Tips, Mina!!

Jan 21 - 10AM
boomer14
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FB....

Jan 21 - 9AM
IncognitoBurrito
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Good!

Jan 21 - 9AM
talktothehand
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Newlife

Jan 21 - 9AM
Renae40
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You are only hurting yourself

Jan 21 - 9AM
TruthbeginsToday
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Facebook is keeping the

Jan 21 - 4PM (Reply to #17)
Newlife2013
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Yes. The disrespect in and of

Jan 21 - 8AM
Deidre99
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My advice? deactivate your FB

Jan 21 - 4PM (Reply to #14)
Newlife2013
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Thank you Deidre!!

Jan 22 - 11AM (Reply to #15)
Deidre99
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Glad to hear this, one day at

Jan 21 - 9AM (Reply to #12)
TruthbeginsToday
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What Diedre said here: I

Jan 21 - 3PM (Reply to #13)
Newlife2013
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I have second guessed, TruthBegins

Jan 21 - 8AM
unbreakable
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Ps- it was VERY hard for me

Jan 21 - 8AM (Reply to #8)
Newlife2013
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Unreakable..what did you tell yourself to stop?

Jan 21 - 8AM (Reply to #9)
unbreakable
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I said what everyone was

Jan 21 - 3PM (Reply to #10)
Newlife2013
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You're right, Unbreakable

Jan 21 - 8AM
unbreakable
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Looking at FB is contact, and

Jan 21 - 8AM (Reply to #6)
Newlife2013
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Yes. I want it to stop, Unbreakable

Jan 21 - 8AM
Newlife2013
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Also...

Jan 21 - 8AM (Reply to #2)
allthewisernow
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I understand how you feel.

Jan 22 - 3PM (Reply to #4)
Butterflystar
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To go on Facebook and other media

Jan 21 - 3PM (Reply to #3)
Newlife2013
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Thank you, AlltheWiser