Closure

I wanted to be everything you ever needed, for you and your daughter. I gave you my heart and soul and you knew it and took full advantage of it. You would tell me how you can see it in my eyes how much I loved you. You would tell me thank you for loving you and your daughter. You would tell me up until the day you left how much you loved me. After getting to know your parents your father once told me I was the son he never had. My family took you in as their own and enjoyed your company as much as I did. The last day we were together your daughter hugged me harder than ever before, as if it was a sign. Two weeks before you left, you watched us play in the pool together. You called us a family even taking a video of me throwing Molly in the air falling into the water. How can these things mean nothing to you? All those things we started to build upon diminished for your own selfishness.

I did see signs of your sickness in you. Looking back now I can make sense of some of the lies and things I just could not figure out. You had me so intoxicated with charm, intimacy and beauty I chose to ignore what my instincts were telling me. Even with the signs I never would have guessed you were capable of doing the things you did.

The last day we were together you spent the day with my sister at a parade with your daughter and her children. You came back to my house with just enough time to jump in the pool with your daughter. You left me telling me you loved me as you were dropping off your daughter at a babysitter to go see the new guy. What kind of person is capable of that? All the signs were there, as they were a year before that. The last time I chose to believe the lies you were telling me, inside knowing something isn't right. The only difference this time is you were caught. You took a vacation with this guy a week after discarding me by an email, not even giving me a chance to try and get some closure or talk about why your doing this. I was in total dibelief. You had your 6 year old daughter vacationing at a theme park with him within 2 weeks of hugging me goodbye. How can you not see what you are doing to the people around you? How can you not care? You just about killed me when I found this out. What about Molly's feelings? What do you say when Molly asks about us? What about our families feelings? I cant even write these statements without crying.

You actually did have me feeling responsible for some of your actions. I had no idea what I was dealing with but now have you figured out. You know that too and are afraid I will expose you to the world you keep so fooled around you. The truth is that you did me a favor. My 16 year old daughter adored you as much as I and trusted you. Her last text to you was asking questions why and your response was "we are doing fine but thanks for asking" You couldn't even give her a decent answer. You are so cold and you have done an outstanding job of hiding what you really are inside. We can now see through it and you eventually will run out of people to use. You left your home before me to start new, that was one thing you did tell me that wasn't a lie. Now I know the real reasons. You have again started your path of lies and deceit here and sooner or later you are going to run out of places to hide.

I'm not the one you should fear for what I might say. Fear yourself for what you do.

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