Christmas blues

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#1 Dec 23 - 5PM
Ruby
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Christmas blues

I know that he is a disordered , manipulating deceitful liar.
I know that he does not care and probably never did.
I know that he is probably spending this holiday season with someone else.
Still it hurts that I no longer exist, to him..
I have stayed away from fb in over a week now
but I guess I hoped that he would at least acknowledge my existence with Christmas Greetings. But he didn't. Mr oh so charming would send best wishes to every man and his dog. But not me. Why? ..because he knows how much that hurts me.
He purposely hurt me many times. Very subtle and passive aggressively, but it was there.
Why me the one who loved him
he did not even try to build a relationship or resolve any issues
Why? because he lied. He did not care I did not mean so much to him in fact I meant less than nothing to him
and all he ever did was make me feel bad about myself.
I hoped for the impossible I hoped that he would show some kind of emotion some kind of sign that he did not lie.
Yeh right...
I hope that this feeling passes quickly. Because I know better.
Merry Christmas to all of you and I hope that it is a happy peaceful one or at least peaceful without thoughts of him ( or her ) constantly intruding.
They do not deserve to even be in our thoughts.

Dec 25 - 5PM
singchick
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Christmas Blues

Dec 24 - 10PM
Ruby
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And this is where we look

Dec 24 - 6PM
beautifulmess
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Hi Masquerade, I am sorry you

Dec 24 - 6PM (Reply to #18)
Ruby
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Thank you hugs back Yes I

Dec 24 - 6PM (Reply to #19)
Nonarcsforme
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Hugs to you M.

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #20)
Ruby
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Thank you. It hurts more so

Dec 24 - 6PM
Ruby
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I am feeling so hurt right

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #15)
shock and awe.some
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Hi Masquerade

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #16)
Ruby
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Hi Yes he does it purposely.

Dec 24 - 6PM (Reply to #13)
Iwasfooledbyyou
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They are sooooo mean and

Dec 24 - 6PM (Reply to #14)
Ruby
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Thank you. Yes it sure does

Dec 24 - 12AM
Ruby
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Thank you

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #8)
bgirl
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'the one thing I've

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #11)
Ruby
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Thank you many hugs back x It

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #9)
shock and awe.some
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It was so difficult for me to

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #10)
Ruby
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I'm sorry you had such an

Dec 24 - 12AM
shock and awe.some
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Hi Masquerade

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #6)
Ruby
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Thank you, you also have a

Dec 23 - 6PM
wildangel
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Merry Christmas to you

Dec 24 - 8PM (Reply to #4)
Ruby
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Thank you Merry

Dec 23 - 9PM (Reply to #2)
beautifulmess
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Merry Christmas. This is my

Dec 24 - 9PM (Reply to #3)
Ruby
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Merry Christmas. I hope you