CD BAD tonight

Hi Friends,

I have been having bad CD for the last few days. Feelings that I am the crazy one...that all relationships are hard...that no one is perfect..I for sure wasn't perfect....what if I am wrong about him...what if he really did love me...the whole gammit...blah blah blah.... Than I re read things that I wrote about him and am reassured and than hours later I am back to feeling emotional and sad ect.... it is a roller coaster of emotions...a tug of war in a sense.....im exhausted. I am in Goldies group and it is helping so so so much... I guess I am venting and am frustrated with myself for needing so much validation that he is in fact a Narc. My best friend said to me today "Well maybe you guys were just not compatible" and I thought "no no no no...it is more than that...so much more...he is a total Narc".... just got me thinking. Thank you all for listening to me vent. Doing the work in Goldies group helps a lot :):)