Broke NC and I am feeling good!

Not that he truly gives a shit about anything I said... but I got to say it. It's off of my chest and done with!

Last night at work my ex N asked me if I was still going to go to the concert with him on the 30th.
Seriously? This joker has screwed with my head and my heart and skipped off into the sunset like I wasn't even a bump in the road. I let it fly and didn't let him say much until I was done. I was so done with him and having to do my best at NC. I am not a quiet person that keeps her mouth shut ever and this NC thing wasn't working. Obviously he wasn't getting it and I wasn't in the mood to hold my tongue just because other people were there. So...
I said (this is somewhat paraphrased but you'll get the gist of it) "Enough is enough. You give me nearly a week of unbearable silence, you tell me you aren't feelin it with me in an email. You dumped me in a fucking email! You are such a coward. Oh then you tell me you broke up with me because you care about me too much to hurt me. You play head games with me calling me baby and pretending like we're still together so people at work don't think you're an asshole because let's face it, you had it god damned good with me. You haven't once even tried to apologize for hurting me. And now you want to know if I still want to go to a fucking concert? Sell my ticket to pay for your gas there since you're so strapped for cash. In fact, why don't you just shove those tickets straight up your ass."
He chased me and said "I'm trying to be friends here, I really just like my solitude, it's not you at all". Let me tell you his fake sincerity just infuriated me more at this point. So I say "Right, another excuse or should I say LIE. I looked after you while you were sick and you didn't mind giving up your solitude then, having me at your beck and call. I feel so fucking used. I'm not a door mat. Fuck off and go get help you damaged piece of shit."
He says "I don't need help, I'm perfectly fine".
I said "Yeah perfectly fine, that's what your shrink said too right?" and I walked away.

AND! He left me alone the rest of the night! :D
He wouldn't even look at me when he walked past me. Screw him! I am not going to stop being me because it makes him more comfortable. I have never taken shit from any man and I am not starting now... especially not from this piss poor excuse for a human being.
Now I look at him and I want to kick him in the balls. What did I see in this selfish ass? He was a childish idiot, drank too much, farted all the time AND thought it was hilarious, treated everyone who didn't follow him like crap, made up all the rules for our relationship and he was a horrible piece of ass. I had a better relationship with a piece of plastic for pete sake! What a waste of my time. What did I ever see in him?

A really great lady that works early mornings asked me how I was as I was punching out and I said "I'm better.. You know he's crazy right?" She says "Yes, everyone knows that". So I asked her why no one bothered to warn me. She looked away... I knew she felt bad about it.

The best part of this is I know when he'll come back crawling... as soon as the snow starts flying. He only wants his solitude while the weather is warm so he doesn't have to give up time for me that he'd rather spend at the beach or skating. I am already prepared for it and I'll tell him "I'm sorry but I don't want to intrude on your solitude".

The minute I walked in the door, I blocked him on facebook and email. I am DONE DONE DONE!

I do not like that I am so angry but if it helps to keep me safe, so be it! I will not shed one more tear over this piece of shit. NOT ONE!