Broke nc

My therapist asked me to break NC and asked me to ask him not to contact me. She felt this would help with my abandonment issues and being that I am nc with my father (narc) for 5 years and I am fine with it, that maybe it would work the same way with him.
Not so much. Bc in total Cd.
He has passive aggressively ripped in to my husband again. And has told me about his new song that he loves. Please see the lovely lyrics below. The song is called Vow

I can't use what I can't abuse
And I can't stop when it comes to you

You burned me out but I'm back at your door
Like Joan of Arc coming back for more

I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died

I came to cut you up
I came to knock you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I cam to shut you up
I came to drag you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart

You burn and burn to get under my skin
You've gone too far now I won't give in
You crucified me but I'm back in your bed
Like Jesus Christ coming from the dead

I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died

I came to knock you up
I came to cut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to rip you up
I came to shut you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart

I nearly died
I nearly died
I nearly died

I came to cut you up
I came to knock you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
I came to shut you up
I came to suck you down
I came around to tear your little world apart
Tear your little world apart
Tear your little world apart
And break your soul apart

I can't stop when it comes to you
I can't stop when it comes to you
When it comes to you
When it comes to you.

When I asked him if this song reminded him of anything he explained it is about a woman who is used to hurting men and the she met someone who flipped it on her.
He told me it makes him want to meet some bitch who thinks she is all that and put her in her place.

All emotion hell broke loose after this (for me). And I am just so screwed up.
I don't think I can be helped.
He sucked me back in. And I hate myself.